Here's "Hoping For The Nukes To Go Off Any Moment"
So yeah, with all the shit going on, on the world stage right now, I have really nothing much to say about it, other than it should be no surprise to you and you should expect it.
This existence is just a really dumb, played out game, I don't even feel sorry for those still playing the game. I look down on them as the losers they are for still believing in it.
In many ways, I look forward to it all, but especially in the hopes that it does go "full-blown", because I see it as a quick guaranteed ticket to be on the way out of here.
For your sake, you should also hope it goes that way.
So tired of this place, and I just refuse to invest any emotional or other energy into anything relating to the World or the Future or Humanity that I just am ready for it to all blow.
I'm really so done with this place. I don't care about anything but listening to Music and sedating myself with beverages for the rest of the time here.
In fact, honestly, I really wish I could just subsist off of beverages only, life would be so much simpler, easier and cleaner, plus I enjoy beverages much more than food in a general sense, because they are refreshing. Food is satiating, but it's not "refreshing".
And if you aren't basically doing that with your life, or whatever else it is you enjoy, bathing in the sun, you get my point. Life as if it's the end of your life right now.
I'd say it's nearly pointless to talk about any of the fine details in-between, because the world is 100% of a joke. Maybe it was 90% of a Joke throughout Human history, but everything is a 100% joke now, so it's pointless to even get involved in anything.
This existence is just a really dumb, played out game, I don't even feel sorry for those still playing the game. I look down on them as the losers they are for still believing in it.
The only one thing that the loser critics actually "get right" about me, is that I likely will one day be discovered dead around a whole bunch of empty soda cans.
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ReplyDeletethe only thing I am scared about is what happens AFTER death. Even through the things we observe, it’s likely that nobody knows for 100% certain what happens after we die. Although for the past while I have been much less afraid of it and instead just not put much thought about it and assume it’s probably an improvement from here.
It takes a special kind of r€ta/d to not see that there is any hope left in this world. Everything now SUCKS DICK and although we are “technically” living in one of the most “convenient” times in history, it doesn’t work as well in practice as it does in theory. Your post about how things are released to the general public once it’s not worth having anymore hit the nail perfectly. Dating apps came out as feminism was only getting stronger, travelling has only became easier to book and manage, GPS technology comes out when….. the world is getting more overpopulated and traffic is getting worse. That was just me reading out your examples from a previous post you’ve publish and it’s excellent.
I would also like to note that the algorithms put in place ensure that you’ll always be “on edge”. As I’ve mentioned before, the best way I can put it is a controlled “butterfly effect” where everything is precisely done to ensure everything stays to plan. That’s why you see so many being used as pawns and genuinely not realising it and not being hired to do so e.g. SOME school shooters.
For my earlier years as a little kid, I used to only drink water and maybe milk. But as of recent even since your teachings, I never realised just HOW GOOD soda is. I drink it everyday now and try to get versions that use sugar. Unfortunately there are so many “sugar-free” varieties being sold at stores. The taste of a sugar-free Coca Cola vs a Coca Cola sugar is noticeably different, the sugar tastes so much better. To be quite honest, sometimes I even add extra sugar to whatever I’m drinking even if it’s already sugary and I put SO MUCH of it in.
Also, do artificial sweeteners ever burn your gums? Sometimes it gives me this type of burn that you would get from spicy foods along with a bitter undertone.
You definitely have the right idea with this, it would be amazing to live off RedBulls, Pepsi’s and Coca-Cola for the rest of my life. I have tried a lot of different varieties of “Monster Energy” but they don’t taste as good, and the ingredients in them are of legitimate concern.
I really do consider soda a health food. It is nowhere NEAR as bad for you as it’s made out to be. I would go as far as to say it is medicinal. Maybe if those psychedelic-taking hippies decided to drink a nice refreshing coca-cola instead of drugs, they would be much happier and healthier.
I’m honestly so sick of sugar being this evil boogeyman in the minds of the public. There are so many things that are bad for us in food, but nearly everyone blames sugar for health issues that it VERY LIKELY DID NOT CAUSE.
Also, eating is just plain annoying to me. Sometimes I just want to relax and then I get hungry and I just go “fuck I have to eat now” and then I have to go through the burden of eating food. Even if it’s really good food it just feels more like a chore to me than anything. The same thing could potentially
happen eventually with those soda cans but at least it’s light and easy to digest along with being much more convenient.
The fact that everything, even things you used to solemnly enjoy and seek novelty out of, will eventually be something you may even HATE after some amount of time shows the disgusting state of this creation. Yet things you hate will only continue to feel worse and consume you and make you feel miserable.
If I’m not mistaken, you mentioned that you fell and injured yourself a year or so ago. The fact that this injury will likely scar you and possibly stay the rest of your life, whilst AGAIN a pleasurable moment will AT MOST be a nice memory… I guess
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DeleteI couldn't have stated it better myself!
You hit all the target points, and it's true, none of us and nobody out there can know what happens for certain after we die here, but the fact is for someone like me, it's more unnerving to have to wait and find out, and meanwhile the suffering still goes on.
I just hate things more than ever right now because I know life is even a more uphill battle from here on in for sure, particularly with how everyone now is an NPC, and how there is less and less freedom of any kind, and with the AI Future, Inflation, etc.
Every day when I wake up, I just think to myself how fucking stupid and retarded this whole world is and how much I resent my parents for having brought me into this world.
But I would say the probability of what comes after this is 50/50, in a way.
One of those results could be that there is absolutely nothing after this, and that would be a WIN. The other half ends up being 25/25, because it could be something better, or it could be worse.
All possibilities are surely on the table.
>Dating apps came out as feminism was only getting stronger<
Yes, in fact I never really used the actual Dating Apps per se, but I was involved in using certain Websites which were designed to meet people of a certain interest or hobby, up until they become less relevant and then Dating Apps began exploding after that, and with the most superficial of people on them.
The websites I used to use, rarely even had bots or fake accounts on them, and there were still chances to meet cool and interesting people on them. I've met some people from Bands as well through some of those websites, and to be honest, I actually shudder from the thought of meeting any strangers from the Internet these days, because I notice how much people highly screen you to see what they can get out of you or use you.
It wasn't AS BAD with this, until Social Media and Smart phones became more popular.
And yes, like with everything, you get FAST COMPUTERS now with basically anything you can do, but it almost feels pointless to use them or do things or for a future job, and they released that in a time when the plan is to Automate and replace Human Power, Creativity and Energy with AI and Robots anyway.
I personally think people who drive on the roads these days must absolutely be insane or numb to how stressful, dangerous and insane it is to be driving a car and dealing with all the variables on the road.
It is better to live slower, not faster.
I also will confess, somewhat of another reason why I do the energy drinks as well, even though they have ingredients that are not healthy in them. And I may write about this over time, but as much as I love the flavor and stimulant effect, and I realize why I need the stimulation at times from them, but I also have needed to use them as a way of managing passing the time.
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DeleteAlcohol does not do it the same for me, because even though Energy Drinks from Caffeine or Stimulants has its own "crash", it isn't that feeling from when Alcohol wears down where you just feel clumsy or out of control and dehydrated at times, and the Alcohol for me just doesn't seem to help pass the time as much. It may be just something with me, but man I would really really make a POOR Alcoholic if I even tried to be one because of how much I would dread having to live like one just to cope in this world. Most Alcohol, especially more than ever, just tastes like such shit, I can't even bear to consume to it, especially very bitter Alcohols and Beers. I've given up most Beer because for some reason, the Bitterness has been bothering me more on even Beers that were very mild with Bitterness to me in the past, unless they've changed their recipes to "cheapen things up", which wouldn't surprise me.
Another thing I do not like about Alcohol, is they are actually the most worthless of calories you can consume, unfortunately, all while they work to deplete the body of nutrition. So it actually "robs" us even more, and then it makes us hungry, giving us the munchies so you feel a strong urge to eat later on, I hate that!
The main reason that Soda becomes an addiction, while many people or so-called "Experts" thinks it's addiction from the Sugar or Caffeine specifically, it has much more to do with the fact that it suppresses cortisol and promotes Dopamine release.
The thing is, if someone is bored or if you are busy passing time for any reason or if any part of your life is depressing, even if you eat well, you will have high cortisol. This is why when you drink soda, you feel immediate sensation of relief, but especially more so with Cola, assuming it's a "real" Cola of which many are not anymore.
Yes, believe me having the Sugar Colas any day is far, FAR superior to the Sugar-Free ones on every level imaginable and particularly with Health, and the Flavor.
>To be quite honest, sometimes I even add extra sugar to whatever I’m drinking even if it’s already sugary and I put SO MUCH of it in.<
Sugar addiction or the need for more sugar is quite interesting, because to be honest while I like sweet things now and then, I do find that there is still too much sugar in these drinks. For example, I would be satisfied with half or even maybe 1/3 or so of the sugar in any Soda or even Iced Tea, and that is really all that I need to feel great.
Most Soft Drinks and Soda or Pop Beverages that exist today, now have far more Sugar than they used to from many years ago.
>Also, do artificial sweeteners ever burn your gums?<
They probably do, I haven't done much research on the effects of Artificial sweeteners on the teeth or gums, but considering that they are a manmade ingredient, I would be surprised of any kinds of strange things it does. All I know is even the smallest amounts of Artificial Sweeteners give me headaches and make me dizzy and cause mental fog, and I get very paranoid.
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DeleteI had an incident a couple of years ago from some Bitch where I ordered a Caramel Coffee from, and apparently they must have been out of the Regular variety and so she gave me an Artificially Sweetened Caramel shot in my drink and I felt like shit the rest of the day, I was so pissed! I would've just gone without the flavoring whatsoever.
Also, when I drink the Energy Drinks or Soda, it puts me in a more optimistic mindset and "slows me down" believe it or not, even though Stimulants are supposed to speed you up.
I use them because when I'm under a lot of stress or can't stand bored situations, it just helps to "break" the staleness and anxiety.
While Alcohol tends to remove stress, I can't explain it, but it doesn't do it in the same way I like. The first 5 minutes, and the extent of the first hour of Drinking Alcohol are probably the best part of it, and then it can feel annoying after that sometimes, and it varies highly based on the mood and what I ate, so it's very volatile, especially when you reach my age, in how it affects you. I also don't like the feeling of being "hot" which it does, it raises the core body temperature. Caffeine does it too, but not as much.
>I really do consider soda a health food.<
Heh, well I wouldn't look at it too much from that standpoint, it's actually more of "nothingness" than anything because it's bereft of Nutrition, but basically the most realistic way to look at it, is that it's a Form of Energy, and that it can be used to suppress Cortisol, or as a short-term solution to raise dopamine levels, or help you to get to sleep at night.
It does not cause cancer or any of that other scary stuff you hear about, or causing Diabetes, especially if it's made of Pure Sugar. The aspect of Sugar influencing Diabetes comes from a failure between the Gut and the Liver to manage Sugar, rather than the Sugar itself.
So what that means is that someone's health is otherwise not in order, which could be due to all kinds of issues, including stress, diet in general or even exposure to environmental toxins or pollution.
I guess the only other main concern (here's where calories DO matter), is that the amount of calories you consume in terms of the Soda do not match, exceed or compete with the Natural foods you must eat, Particularly Animal Fat and Protein.
In my view, and this is my personal view based on both studies and experience, it is probably not good to drink more than 1 Liter of any kind of beverage per day, so that would also include the Soda, and it also applies on the Calorie Density level as well, because dysbiosis becomes a raw reality day after day if you did it regularly like that.
Now if you have a day here and there in hot summer or did a lot of outdoor activity, having a 1 Liter Soda beverage would absolutely be appropriate now and then. But just not day in, day out, every day for months, years.
The fear porn around Soda, is mostly guilt-driven, and targeted towards Men, because they want Men to feel guilty about drinking it or the need to drink it, especially Younger Men who play video games, because Soda, and especially Coca-Cola specifically over the others is used as the primary method to deal with Depression and Cortisol levels because of the effect of the Cola, and so it is consumed by most people with Depression or High Anxiety.
It's still better than consuming any "pills".
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DeleteYes, eating can really be annoying many times, because it requires more preparation and involves getting messy and concentrating, and so it always comes up that you get hungry during the most inconvenient times or it's especially annoying when working on a project.
At least when working on a project, it's more feasible to have a drink or mug of something nearby to sip on, but it's not feasible when eating.
>The fact that everything, even things you used to solemnly enjoy and seek novelty out of, will eventually be something you may even HATE after some amount of time shows the disgusting state of this creation. Yet things you hate will only continue to feel worse and consume you and make you feel miserable.<
Yes, and it's one of the things I DESPISE the most of this place. Hell, you can even become desensitized to either Caffeine or Alcohol, and so these are drugs rather than things someone likes for its own merit, and yet there is some kind of programming in us that will still make you so that you develop a tolerance or your neurotransmitters get burnt out so you need more and more to get the same effect, for those where the Caffeine or Intoxication is the goal.
Yes, you are right, I did injure myself actually once significantly last year and one time I think a year or two before that, but believe it or not the former injury took me longer to get over because I would feel the pain intermittently, but both injuries had fully healed, I was nervous about both of them but they fully healed it seems.
At worst, there could be some internal scarring but it's probably negligible and not much of an issue at this point realistically, at least compared to other things that bother me such as enduring these nasty winters!
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Deleteto be quite honest, thanks for giving me such a pleasure to read. But I also feel a bit guilty not dignifying it with a long response.
I can’t wait to see the sun again and for bright days. I’m so sick of being wake at like 9 in the morning and it’s not even that bright and then the day is so incredibly dark at essentially 5pm.
The only ONE bad thing about the sun is the fact that I sweat very easily and sometimes the heat can easily trigger that, but it is NOTHING in comparison to the fucking cold weather and feeling sick and wearing as much clothes as possible and STILL feeling cold. I even tripped on barely visible ice randomly just a few days ago and I thankfully did not get too hurt.
It’s so fucking bullshit seeing everything cold and everything being unenjoyable in general but ESPECIALLY during cold times. The only thing I like about the rain is that sometimes it can be quite soothing when you hear it when trying to sleep, but that’s it and even that is slowly starting to annoy me. Otherwise I hate how it quite literally “rains on my parade” when I’m just trying to have a decent time. I hate when I’m outside and then it randomly starts raining and then my clothes get wet, I get wet and it ruins the scenic view of EVERYTHING. We don’t get much snow here in Ireland. And also especially as I have quite long hair, it takes FOREVER to dry once it gets wet.
And that’s not even mentioning the damage that rain and snow can cause.
And then you have fucktards like that facebook post you shared of someone saying it represents a fresh slate and a new beginning.
Yes it does represent those two things because the rain destroys and ruins everything, causing you to have to begin again on your projects and ideas. And it washes everything away in a bad sense.
https://youtu.be/p_0n67P2sxo?si=D0xrOzQKC5bHhynV
I’ve been enjoying this life performance quite recently by Xasthur and Nachtmystium as “background noise”. I actually do dislike music as “background noise” even though it’s typically what I do quite a lot of the time with music.
Nuke likely don't exist, but I am sure they have lots of creative ways ready to go, when they want to take this planet down.
ReplyDeleteIt just seems that we are living in ZOMBIE world these days.
At the gym this morning (I just walk the treadmill by the way, very slowly, and I go to observe people and just get out of the house), I noticed that people are just ZOMBIE'ed out for the most part. There is no life in people, it seems. They are worn out, beat down, for the most part.
The world already ended, we're just watching the death throes
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