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Recharging

I've been trying to regroup after this somewhat "hellish" start of a year, and to be honest on a relative / overall basis, it is of course still a shit year in general, but the last winter did something detrimental to me. I've been in an unusually better, even "chipper" mood these last few days believe it or not, so much so that I have been hesitant to change or involve myself in anything outside of the activities that are improving how I feel, and a part of that has also largely involved soaking in the sun, particularly since the real weather has finally bloomed here again. I find that when the sun is out, even though the sun can make us stinking lazy, for some reason the warmth and even humidity "motivates" me in a strange way where everything just seems to move or function better, whereas I have problems mustering up any energy in the cold. I always remember being this way, but it is worse in my later years now than ever, and I would much much r...

Video Addressing "Empaths"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TTyf_ejNBx0 As I've said many times, there are very few voices out there who ever speak out against Autistic people or even expose the real fact about people who call themselves "Empaths", so when I do see videos that I come across that  ALL people who call themselves "Empaths", you need to run for the hills from. An Empath is an Emotional Vampire. It is quite curious and interesting, to note that the girl as it seems came to the same conclusions as I have outlined, assuming it is her own views, for example I have illustrated that someone telling someone they are an "empath" is like telling someone that they are a "sleeper" or "eater" when we all eat. As I had mentioned, so-called "Empaths" view their so-called "Empathy" as an auxiliary attribute of themselves that is somehow not typical or normal, and feel an urge to announce it, when a Pure Human would never announce or think to ...

Germany might now be one of the most retarded countries on Earth...

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vAkmEj4BTAU Honestly, for the last 10 years I have had nothing but knots in my stomach almost anytime I see anything that comes out of Germany, because of how disgusted I am with what the place has become. Surely, America also had a major role in that, but now look at the place. This documentary illustrates exactly what Mental Illness looks like in Modern Germany, Nose rings and all, and I just died when I heard the girl who claimed to listen to Metal, of course she doesn't listen to REAL  Metal, but Metalcore! I bet that's what the Manifestation Nonsense and Drinking Matcha tea did to her. I got a real chuckle with the guy who noticed the whole "No Homo" thing, and that just goes to show you how influential American counter-culture is, because it came out of the combination of American Homoeroticism of American people rooted in Puritanism and the African-Americans who coined the term. So as you can see, all the way in Germany, that guy...

A Random Curiosity Question I Have For Everyone

I don't believe I ever really brought up this topic before, but it has been something in my thoughts a lot lately with how I've seen this world change and decay, especially more so now since "COVID" but I would say much more so since Social Media took off by storm after 2010... But, COVID really did put the nail in the coffin on this, but do you all find it harder, if not impossible, or outrageously humiliating or disappointing nowadays to ever introduce someone you know to other people or to ever get anyone on the same page about anything at a public gathering!? I'm not talking about anything online. Real life gatherings only. Because, with all the atomization I see of people and how they really live in their own worlds, and it just seems nobody is on the same page about anything and that people really don't know how to act or conduct themselves around other people, that I just can't imagine how any of these experiences could ever go positively anymore!? ...

Another thought I've been reminiscing lately too in these days...

The thing I've also been thinking of in the quest of my existence on this Earth, I guess at least for this "lifetime" but maybe from cumulative lifetimes of the past, is how much I am an "all or nothing" type of person. Like any typical stubborn German. Basically, you are riding with me, or you are an enemy, there is basically no in-between when it comes to us Germans, and as anyone might know when dealing with one that we tend to basically be unable to deal with any variables or anything that does not dance in tune with the beat of our drums. And perhaps this is also another thing I saw in Goatis that I also really admired, and I absolutely loved the way that Goatis had the most unironic way of his means of intolerance towards others who did not see his way with things, whether it's over Veganism or him basically calling people "mentally ill". Even the way he started off that one video where he said "You're mentally ill if you don't e...

I think I'm just dying of old age!?

Really though to be on a serious note guys, you probably am noticing that my activity on here is sporadic lately... And it's not your imagination by any means... Ugh, let's just say this. I am extremely self-aware and I also have witnessed over and over with how my older relatives have died, and I see in me the same patterns with how things were with them as well in their later days. And my own patterns of how things are going now are directly related to their patterns from what I remember... I am having very good days where things are all "together" and other days where I just am not functioning. I'm noticing too that almost the slightest things begin to "cut me" and many of you are not going to be happy hearing me say this, but I am also cognizant to the fact that my body has been slowly rejecting me eating a lot of meat... Especially the fat more so, and I am not purposely trying to cut back but honestly I remember exactly from several family members ...

Today is "Fuck The World Day" For Me

Just to rub in my own sentiment and how much I really don't give a shit about anything in this world, here's to a reminder by saying "Fuck The World" Today! It's just so totally pointless that have any kind of anything invested or tied to this world. Let it all burn, baby, burn...