Stress Over Funeral Nonsense & Other Nonsense

This bitter thing in the family is really coming to a head, and I have to tread unbelievably careful because of how absurd and ridiculous things have become...

But the worst part about this situation is the fact that the biggest burden is on me, because I am the most honest person in this situation, and it's no coincidence or irony that the ones who jumped quick into completely endorsing and forgiving someone whose been "estranged" in the family, is one of the fakest persons ever and is good at putting on an act.

I really hate to ramble on about a personal family issue on something like this, but the most insane part is this family member has magically "corralled" all remaining family members and is trying to force me into attending someone else's funeral who is not even a blood relative whatsoever, and who was not particularly a good person at all. A greedy assholes, whose life revolved around gambling and money.

I've been contemplating this for many days, because of how the family dynamics can go either way, but it eats away at my soul to ever attend or even give a sliver of energy to this worthless person along with the endless NPC's who I know will be energy draining vampires at the funeral.

A part of me really doesn't care at all, but the disgusting part is how someone has such ability to completely forgive someone who is estranged in the family and suddenly invite them back like everything else is just water under the bridge now.

And the person who forgave them, expects that I and everyone else should just all go along with this and pretend that the "past is the past".

Because of what they did, it leaves a whole host of new challenges, inconsistencies, frictions, tensions and other unanswered questions and conflicts that are creating a ripple effect in the family, and I am specifically choosing to distance myself from it while being "guilted" by a pathetic member.

All because they expect me to "cover" for their lies and decision to bring this person back in the light.

Believe it or not, I'm actually quite naive about certain things in life even around things like Marriages and Funerals, even Insurance and so forth, and the reason is because I am not an active participant in Human-based Institutions that I don't believe in or subscribe too. Even marriage doesn't make sense to me, like the whole legal processes and involvements with the church or whoever does the rituals and what not. I just can't be bothered with it, or to rehearse it, which is basically a form of "acting", it's too weird for me.

It's the same way I'm also being harassed now about needing a "will" and planning my estate, because I never made one, and I also don't deal with Legalities because I don't believe in Laws, as you all know.

In fact, if you choose to live this way as I do, you will also be targeted FAR less by the so-called "Law", because your presence in the system kind of works in an absurd manner. Not that you cannot run into problems as such, but the thing is, the more you are established in anything in this system, the more areas your information is recorded, the more things can go wrong - is my point.

For example, you could show me an entire Insurance Application or some Tax thing, and I'll have absolutely no clue what any of the jargon is on it, I can't even be bothered with it, it's all made up nonsense, and then to see something written in there like "DUE TO ACTS OF GOD" or conducting myself in "good faith" and involving myself with this party versus that party, or who's liability is this or that.

The moment I read any of that kind of verbal diarrhea, I'm already rolling my eyes and can't be bothered to read any further.

Honestly, it's almost like a foreign language or gibberish, that's I don't get involved in such things in this life, and I also don't own cars (which you also are required to have insurance to legally drive), so on and so forth.

In real terms, most of it even from a Legal standpoint is actually utter bullshit, but the reason such statements exist in Legal Language have more to do with the Color of Law and the extent that Laws can be pursued or extending the reach of definitions, so it is pretty much just a waste of time in my view to get really involved with it or care all that much.

What one needs to care about in this life is anything you choose to sign that is legally binding.

And I suggest you do more things with a handshake, rather than signatures.

When I see these documents, I almost look at them like they are a joke and what the fuck is this!? While most Humans take it seriously, but that just goes to show how far someone who is more naturally in-line with living in their own instincts handles these things, compared to a domesticated cattle slave human like almost everyone else is.

Nope, although I am registered citizen and all, born in America, I have probably a smaller paper trail in the most literal sense compared to most citizens, because I don't really establish a lot of institutional products as most people seem to be accustomed to doing in their lives. I basically just live for pleasure and on the edge, and low profile.

In fact, let me divert real briefly there too, you will not believe how many people I have encountered in my life who corner into questions about my health care or insurance and where I have no answers for them and do not understand what they are talking about, and they act like I have to have something or have to have an answer or know about something, as if I couldn't be living my life without these things or something.

I then get told "Nobody lives like you, you are fucking crazy. What if such and such happens to you!?"

For example, if I were even dating a girl and we had intentions to "marry", hypothetically, I would not even know or understand or be able to properly participate in the wedding ceremony because it's just that much of a "strange" thing to me that I do not identify with the customs, traditions or things that are involved in a Wedding, even as simple as the Man getting down on his knees.

I do not get involved in things like Insurance or other Mainstream things that Humans do, very much living like the Amish except I use electricity, but this has always been the way I lived because these things do not make sense to me, just as they probably also do not make sense to the Amish.

And my whole life, I have been haunted by family members and agencies who insist that I must plan for this and set this and that up, and I'm especially getting haunted for it now, as I said recently, I'm officially thought to be or deemed "Homeless" by the State, because I have no established Retirement / Social Security or other things in place, not even a Will and basically no legal documents except for the bare minimum ever established in my life.

I never even bothered to look into these things, frankly, never cared, and I did just fine all these years regardless. I'm not particularly interested to be "statistics in the system" like all the other NPCs are.

I actually think it's totally hilarious in a way!

Well, I just learned something today, which I kinda had a "sneaking suspicion" about but I suspected was more or less true based on my observations about Funerals in how most Humans behave at them.

I suppose this ought to be more of a "DUH!" Moment, maybe you might say, but in reading some literature, it turns out that Funerals are more of an event meant for the bereaved than the departed!?

The the actual EVENT of a Funeral in actual terms is by design for the focal point of the mourners not the actual person who died as such.

I'm having a hard time getting my head around this and thought it was just an opinion, but I'm having one of those "Dunkin Donuts" moments as I'll call it, where I lived almost a whole life having no idea that when these Massholes order a coffee called a "Regulah" that it meant a coffee with with cream and sugar, and I have thought almost my entire life that it just meant regular coffee such as no decaf or with nothing added or a regular size or something.

Then again, this goes to show you how much I do not socialize or have much active involvement with society, especially Americans, at least outside of certain work.

It's actually unreal that I never realized something like this until more recent times, but then again, I am technically born and living in a "foreign land".

And to be honest, I have some of my own views about funerals, but the fact that this is the absolute actual truth about funerals apparently, even above my own confirmed suspicions, raises an even more inner disgust in me, because it completely defeats the notions about what a funeral is supposed to be about, and also further raises my idea about why funerals really are an obsolete idea and just outright stupid.

But I always suspected this really was the truth, outside of just an opinion that Funerals were more for the mourners, especially with the fact of how many laughs and phony faces come together and discuss matters which have nothing to do with the dead person, and then go celebrate over some food and drink afterwards...

The Funeral Industry is also such a major scam, and it's something I'll get into at a later time too because I think this can also be quite an interesting discussion.

But I literally never knew it was officially the idea of having a "funeral" for the departed was more for those mourning than the dead person.

I almost feel like I'm in an altered state even writing this, but if anyone knows on this, is this some kind American thing or does anyone know the cultural significance of this being true for certain cultures?

I really would be curious to know, because it's not something I really thought about on serious terms, but just based on watching tendencies people have at funerals.

Because this is absolute nonsense. I suppose I should start talking to Funeral Directors again to ask them some questions, and I'm even quite concerned about some trivial details for when my own time comes, or if I make a "special choice"!