How my own Work Ethic has changed and decline with my Aging Bitterness

I'd like to also offer some more detailed perspectives, as a much older Man than probably most of my readers here who are likely either Gen X, but I believe mostly Millennials and Gen Z.

Even as a Man who has worked only about 10-20 hours per week in my life, sometimes even less, sometimes even going whole weeks without work, I have to state for the record that even I have become startled at how much I am recognizing the long-term effects of this labor on both my Mental and Physical Health.

As some of you are aware from me bringing it to attention, I am experiencing some beginning stages of Cognitive Decline which I am immensely aware of within my own person, particularly since last year into this year.

When I look back, I can trace all of this decline and experience to a combination of Trauma from Life Experiences, especially from Women and in particular, my Job.

Because I remember, at times, experiencing these cognitive issues for brief periods in my youth during the Trauma, which even led to problems with "Balance" when walking, and throughout my life I have revisited these sensations, but now they are starting to become something I experience regularly, unfortunately, which are part of the aging process from that stress.

It's no wonder why many of my peers are in wheelchairs or walking with a cane. This can't be natural!

And I'd like to say I'm living proof of that, even at the rate I am going compared to them, because I am in immensely better health than even my peers, which is really scary.

But I'd like to say that, even these 10-20 weekly hours I've worked, have been far, far too much, with far too much mental and physical investment in the short bursts of work I've performed in my life, and I clearly even recognize this at this time in my life.

So much so, that I have actually become quite bitter and full of a sense of rancor in a way because even at this rate, I feel like a huge part of my life has been ripped away from me, even despite the occasional good experiences and financial stability.

I have become so burnt out with work, that to be honest, my approach at this time to any kind of work, is that I view the most negative scenario about it, and by the terms that no amount of money I get from the job even makes up for the time lost.

To give you a concrete example of what I mean, some Woman who is an old client of mine, had recently called me up, for repeating the SAME time accident from years ago where she spilled a liquid that 'fried" something, and called me upon an emergency, and I just could not help to think to myself "YOU HAVE GOT TO BE FUCKING KIDDING ME, AGAIN!?"

Just like a child who never learns their lessons from mistakes, I thought to myself.

And no matter how much she paid me, she could pay me BILLIONS of  dollars, I'm not kidding you, and my mindset still thinks to myself, that I've lost about 6 hours worth of my life all because of her childish mistake, that if it never had happened in the first place, I would have 6 extra hours in my life all to myself.

This is how you begin to see things as you get older.

I remember because when I was younger, I didn't care as much and just looked at the money aspect, but as you get older you want more and more free time as much as possible and to just not be bothered whatsoever, and no amount of money even makes up for it, along with the lost hours and the stress you have to put up with.

It makes me very angry, in a way that I can't explain. Because I look at it from the perspective of if she did not spill her beverage.

More than ever, I just appreciate being left alone as much as possible by everyone in society, even from potential jobs no matter how much they pay.

So my message to the youth is never be afraid to be stingy with your time to others, do not give in, and I can only imagine that the hordes of Men who have labored their lives 40 or more hours per week, either these Men are HEAVILY in denial about how much it has impacted them, or these Men are just outright lacking in self-awareness, not seeing how bad they really have had it.

If Even for fear of being seen as "Less Than A Man".

I have to say that there have been so many circumstances where I see Men on the job who are like gophers and I think to myself how much these Men are totally blind their slavery status...

They don't see or think themselves as Slaves!

So in summary here, I hope this serves as a warning to young Men, wherever you are in your life or goals, because yes, I have become so bitter and calculating down to the fact that I am even counting the hours left on this Earth that are wasted in servicing someone else's needs other than my Own.

I am tired of it. I really truly am.

And I want you to always remember despite what Boomers ./ Parents or Employers tell you, although I think there is some precedent of awareness going on about this, is never to fail to remind these cheapskates who make it seem like they are doing a "favor" in hiring you and singing you a paycheck or giving you an allowance or feeding you, that they are in fact doing you no favor!

You know, it's funny, but I remember early on how Employers would act so heavily like they do not need Employees and they try to hide this well, but they also like to make workers forget that it's not only the Labor they are stealing from their Employees.

Your TIME on this Earth is being stolen for every living Second, Minute and Hour you dedicate to your employer, and the fact is that while Money or Productivity can always increase or be gained back in some sort of way, TIME cannot be.

Never fail to remind these greedy bastards, that your Time is important, and that they are not just paying for your stupid job or chores, despite what "value" is taken into account for the work you do, the fact is that your TIME is being stolen from you... Something which you can never get back, and for every hour you work for someone else, it's an hour less to yourself in this already wretched life.