Haha!!! LOVE THIS, SelfMaxxer just happened to come up with the "PERFECT" Life Solution for Alpha M!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yq6hg9RzzSw
Though it's more targeted to someone working for another Employer, a lot of this advice still applies to Alpha M. being self-employed. He would do well to take this sage advice!
Most of us here have been saying this, and it is true.
ReplyDeleteYou have to have confidence as a man. I have quit about 3-5 jobs that paid well over 100K back when 100K was worth it...over ten years ago...because I couldn't stand the abuse.
You simply have to know you worth, and believe in yourself. I would NEVER recommend quitting a job because 99.9 percent of people don't have the confidence that I have. I can and have pulled it off...sure I went broke a few times doing that, but that comes with it. That is why you shouldn't do it.
Like Fabiio says, just do the minimum. He is right. They don't care about you. They, these corporation, are predatory sacks of shit.
I would never let a company game me. I always cut corners when I needed to , and I had to, because it was an important part of keeping my sanity.
Also, a person should ALWAYS be networking and looking for better opportunities. NEVER work for a bad person or bad manager. They are demons. Instead, find someone with a similar ethic background and find a company that rarely downsizes their employees. Do your research and understand that they are very good paying jobs that are also low stress.
This reminds me of a good friend of mine that almost got arrested at his job, as he almost beat the shit out of his boss...
the story goes that this prick come into the break room and threw down a bunch of Wal Mart job applications, and said, "if any of you don't like it here, then fill one of these out". We my buddy didn't take to well to that and went after him. He had to be held back by about 10 men. I just love that story.
A means to an end is a good way to look at it, for sure. Also, SAVING money is key to freedom. Don't be a god dam consumer if you want to evolve past the Demiurge. That is really the goal for man, to pass the Demiurge and beat them, with knowledge.
@Joey Aragon
DeleteWOW man you really have played the financial game well. From being broke to being able to gamble 10K per day, to going broke again, to now being comfortable. As much as I dislike the whole chasing money thing, you have played the money game the right way. Working for yourself and taking no shit in the workplace. And I just love that story of your friend and the boss who got a good hiding.
I would take your advice any day as you have gotten good results, but what is the thing about saving money? I have never taken an interest in saving money due to inflation, and right now inflation is very bad. So I spend my money because I would hate it to sit there and devalue quickly in a high inflation economy. I had a phase when money was naturally increasing and I was saving. But once I hit £5,000 I stopped because I would hate to see me lose money to inflation. I started buying higher quality food and enjoying myself with my money. Aswell as not pushing to earn money and instead sitting back on my £5,000. I also keep it in cash because I don’t trust the banks. I can understand saving if you want to buy something that takes a few years to buy. But if you are saving money for longer than a decade, the purchasing power of your money really gets rinsed by inflation.
Investing is the word I should have used. Although, it is good to have about 3-6 months of cash to cover all your bills, all the time...that differs for everyone.
DeleteInvesting would be stocks like IREN, CIFR, PTON, CRWV, NBIS, MSFT, NVDA, PLTR, GOOG, META, and TSLA. My main advisor is on all these, and that will make you money.
Also, savings is playing 3.75% with most banking services. Do your research. There is some money in savings accounts, if you don't like any risk.
@PSA my dad is kicking me out of the house and forcing me to move to another country to live with someone else, the plan was an older woman from Japan, I’m taking the GED now to get my high school diploma, just parents being abusive again… do you have any advice? Maybe a better country, I’m 16
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DeleteWhoa, what's going on there!? Why exactly is he kicking you out, I'm confused here?
Is this 100% going to happen?
@John Eston that is a lot to push onto a 16 year old. But like PSA said, we need to know more of what is going on? An older woman in Japan. That sounds very strange and random.
Deleteyou’ll have to go into further detail John. This is all very vague, Prussian can’t really give you advice without explaining more
Delete@PSA It’s complicated… For context he’s 70 years old born in Forest City Iowa, he grew up without a father and met his dad when he was an adult but he said he didn’t know him and was raised by German Grandparents on a family farm, I believe from his mothers side (last name Einhaus) … lives off of military pension and is married to my mom who is from the Philippines and I’m the oldest son and I have a younger brother.
ReplyDeleteHe lived in the Philippines for 14 years and got involved in some cult religion called “Unification Church” where there was an arranged marriage with my mom who’s about 20 years younger.
Both parents are religious and brainwashed, the mother prevents me from dating.
Essentially how the story goes is that I was malnourished as a child due to my stupid low IQ mother (she’s incredibly dumb) so I became self aware of my appearance and I was put on braces and “four premolar extractions” which my dad had when he was younger and figured that’s what they should do to me too so I had the braces for years and they hurt like hell.
This started at around 13-14 where depression kicked in because of the black pill and also I was fed plants and seeds and would get terrible stomach problems and IBS which would come back every year.
I also got glasses during this period and always had my hair shaved like a buzz cut by my mother my entire childhood and it was because of the father who wouldn’t let it get long, And I was also working out all the time.
He noticed that I acted differently and didn’t really talk much and I couldn’t tell him it was because of my face so I told him it was because we’ve been isolated from other kids since we were homeschooled since 5th grade.
So I went back into town and back into school. And during this period I started drinking raw milk and fixing my diet and eventually one day I had the urge to just quit completely, following a few weeks after stopping the exercise
I suddenly became very curious about the Bavarian Illuminati and researched until I found a video exposing them. The video ended off with the message “turn back to god” and that satanism is your real enemy. I showed the video to my dad and it only reinforced his belief of good vs evil in the world which he has instilled into me ever since I was a little boy. Whereas I found out later it was also a trick.
Later I discovered Goatis, and started to have my mom order grass fed meat online and I would eat them raw in secret.
During this time, I started never exercising, being out in the sun a lot , sun gazing, and not acting like a total slave. He always scolded me, called me brainwashed, insane, mock me for walking on the lawn barefoot and insisted I would get “parasites”, I usually keep to myself and dont talk to him much. It also became clear that I didn’t care about many things. He says I don’t talk, I can’t deal with people, I don’t eat together, I don’t exercise, and he calls me a narcissist. He also says “why the hell are we buying this kid milk, we’re fueling his drug addiction, milk is a drug, reinforcing the bullshit in his brain”
At this point he says I have two choices , get shipped off to the military (which I would never do) or go to Japan with my moms friend for 6 months (to learn about the reality of the world and “change” as in act like a slave again) even though I know the world is truly a horrible place and I acknowledge responsibilities I will have to get by.
Another thing that triggered him is I had honey and a couple egg shells in the shower room because I was following SELFMAXXERs advice for hair, he was absolutely furious and said I was out of my mind.
I was having a relatively good time in school it’s my junior year signed up for honors classes, and I was talking to girls and had friends, and all of that just abruptly came to an end.
I really want to get away from them and live on my own at this point…
@John Eston,
DeleteWow, I didn't realize that all of this was going on here, but I can see your predicament in all of this, because these type of conditions make things extremely challenging for the obvious stated reasons.
As much as I hate to say it, often what happens in these situations, and I'm not sure if you have witnessed any family comments on either side of your extended family, but the most tragic thing that happens when two completely different people have children, is that often behind the scenes, the family begins to discuss why the person doesn't fully look or act like "their side", and a lot of times, what happens is that parents become what I call "discreetly abusive" because they will know ahead of time the challenges and implications for their children in the future to come, and instead of owning up to their life choices on it, it can end up being often a situation where punishments and resentment are unfairly meted out on the child.
This is in fact what also happened to Elliot Rodger.
The thing too though is that it's not exclusive of a phenomenon to Europeans and others, but it can happen also between vastly different European races as well, who may have different features and personalities.
In fact, their finding "resolve" in that religion you speak of, probably serves as an agency for much of their "guilt", and maybe also why your mother refuses from allowing you to date, because she does not want to admit some things to you or deal with any possible shaming that would come from the family, and this would most certainly be more problematic on her side than your father's side.
If you don't mind me asking, do you resemble more of your Father or Mother? In most cases it would be with the Father, but I ask because certain exceptions do happen, and I would like to rule that out.
In terms of IQ, yes unfortunately the people of the Philippines, do not fare well on the higher IQ list compared to other Asians, they are in fact below the level of what is required for civilization, and that presents a grave risk, and it's probably why much of their culture is in fact managed by Christianity, much more so than other Asian countries.
In my family, this is also a major issue with some members who have intermixed beyond their control, and I may have mentioned it before, but I have a German relative who is a Man who ended up marrying someone of Hispanic descent.
And his features are predominantly of course, from the Father who has blonde hair and blue eyes, and actually to be quite honest, he somewhat has a similar profile to "Goatis" although looks distinctly different but has the same intense eyes like Goatis, and the thing is, his son who he had with her, inherited the same blazing blue eyes, and lighter features.
It has created a HUGE rift in my family as you can probably guess, but nowhere NEAR as bad as it has created on "her" side of the family with the problems, but most of all, the fact that he does not really even look Hispanic.
The only way you can possibly see that he "might" have something else, is that the tonal quality of his skin does seem a little bit "different" but only marginally so, and that he has thicker, darker body hair and voice which sounds a little less European, but he has nothing but a major identity crisis in every part of his life, because to anyone whom he says he has the Latin ancestry, they don't believe him and mock him, albeit the genetic expressions are far more passive and subdued.
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DeleteEven when I am surrounded by him, I get a completely Germanic energy and feeling from him, not even minutely Hispanic even though you can "sort of" see there is a slight mixture of something else, and this has led to the mother basically sheltering him from everything in life out of shame.
As a result, his mother has become insanely abusive towards him and feels nothing but "shame" and especially because her own family, although she has a dysfunctional family, has ridiculed her for having someone who they don't identify as "kin". It's very obvious too because she has completely different eyes, not anything like his piercing Nordic eyes.
While the light eyes can show up anywhere, we all know the story about prevalence of them, and the Father who is German has felt nothing but an insane level of guilt which has manifested in a very strange level of projecting a varied form of abuse as well, which includes basically micro-managing every aspect of the child's life, and then ironically having "gotten me" involved in the picture as well.
Guilt can manifest in some very strange behaviors in parents in the way they will allow it to control how they treat their children if they made a bad decision in their life.
Are your parents equally as abusive or which one would you say is worse?
How definite is this situation as far as you getting kicked out for sure and how soon would this be happening!?
I also just want to make sure, are you identifying more with your German or Filipino ancestry? I'm assuming the "former", but just want to make sure, granted most Races are "Patriarchal" however there are some devious Women who know they possess Matriarchal Blood which overshadows the father Ancestry, and will mate with such Men to have Offspring that don't even resemble the father.
We live in a very fucked up world.
Wowww this sounds painfully awful, I wouldn't have imagined u were going through this either. I also would have never guessed u were half filipino or even asian, ur energy doesn't give that off to me. The cherry on top is that everytime you try to do something to counteract the circumstances you were given- those a**holes shut you down. I couldn't at all blame someone for feeling anger or pain at the very least from this.....
DeleteWhat makes it worse is it's not even you're fault, it's enraging to see how many redflags there were before you're parents had you.... I've seen this with other people even in my own family and it's enraging what people will put up with just to have a sx partner or offspring.
If you have to, Japan sounds like the better option even though, I don't think it'll solve much except being away from them and not having to be traumatized by the military.
Sounds like you're making the best out of a bad situation to say the least. Although you show how bad your parents are and the circumstance you've been born into, although I haven't read a lot of posts from you, you come across as someone who is more open minded & conscientious than your father, and not stupid or manipulative like you're mother. I dont think this solves the problem, but sometimes reminding yourself that you are you're own person seperate from you're parents helps me disengage from any dissapointments and unmet expectations or hatred I feel for mine. I know this is kinda bandaidy advice, but someone once told me on reddit to remind yourself, "You are not you're parents, you are not your race, you are not your religion, etc", and even though I do think it's kinda bandaidy to a gunshot wound type of thing, it does make me feel better.
Also, it helps when I take some people who I view as 'superior' to me down from their pedestal, by seeing how many flaws are within that group alone and seeing that people from that group are partially at fault for my circumstance. I also notice a lot of them take for granted what they have.
Not sure how much this helps but I grew up in a similar situation... German male family line, two gen of bad marriages. My german grandpa married this polish women who was probably bipolar & Narc, he was also beautiful- looked almost like lucky blue the model but she screwed it up big time. Then my dad married this stupid women from a totally different group to him, but they used an egg donor from a ONCE AGAIN totally different group to him. I always have hated my darker features and being ambigious looking and not feeling good enough. I was always jealous of people who had light features, and was always upset and never satisfied with my looks.
Also, I stunted my growth too, my mom was an almond mom so fed me 'lightly' and little animal fats because that's 'not healthy'. I was also disturbed by mature female bodies and hated my mom and anything associated with females because I connected it to my mom so I proudly did anything in my power to stop that- including for example TMI but I had amenorrhea for years because of not eating enough- and I was ignorantly happy about that lol. There were also other causes but basically I stunted myself in several ways.
You are doing a good job eating those milk and eggs, especially as a male, you got a bigger growth window period- did u know my lower jaw got wider at 16 when I binge ate pizza pasta with meat sauce and yogurt parfaits? I understand it's not the same as being consistently fed well throughout your life but I don't think you have potential here.
It's hard to hear about people going through this too, I think you will really help yourself with this diet thing, and building your own life away from you're parents and hopefully with good food and weather and just disconnecting from the people and groups in this society that set you up to fail in the first place. I think you have the potential to grow and be satisfied with yourself and enjoy life one day, even though this may take longer and you're path may not be as easy as people born into something were. Good luck John
@John Eston I meant to say I DO think you have potential here. NOT "I don't" when I was talking about diet lol
Delete@PSA I would say the Dad is more abusive, the Mother would let me do anything I wanted and is so dumb that all she does is blindly serve and agree with everything my dad says and even my dad has called my mother a “Matriarch” and threatened to divorce many times. As much as it pains me, I think I do resemble more of my mom in my facial features and overall I can see it in my skin tone and my fingers and bone structure… when I was young I had very light skin and dark hair and dark brown eyes (like my mother) I’ve been pissed off about this for quite some time because I find everything about Filipino genetics utterly repulsive. And when people ask me where I’m from, it’s confusing and embarrassing because I have to say half German half Asian and they can tell I have white heritage but yet I’m not quite white.
ReplyDeleteMy dad has blonde hair and blue eyes and kind of a thick lower lip. He also has a relatively taller skull. He said he had an uncle who was very handsome and could have been a movie star, his name was Keith Einhaus. My dad was also an only child and Keith was like his older brother. He also used to talk about how his grandpa and his brothers were barefist boxers. He might have some French in the bloodline like Jean-Claude Van Damme but not a 100% sure about that
His resemblance in me might be my taller skull. Sadly I didn’t get the blue eyes or the lighter hair
If I might add my mothers face is like more primitive and lower class, with big round almond shaped eyes and wider more monkey like skull.
My mother is not as abusive but rather more demonic. She’s as dumb as a rock and emotionally all over the place. And she stares at me while making her eyes bulge if you know what I mean.
She just told me “we need to keep daddy around” so that’s why I’m listening to him, because he might go to a “bad place”. And I replied with “what the hell are you talking about?” And she said I know you don’t understand. Also I forgot I had a stepbrother that my mom had with some darker sumo like phenotype guy from Japan before she had me. So my dad had to take care of him too for many years. And he also was abusive too him to even a greater extent.
Overall I have a lot of resentment for my father for being lazy and impregnating some random subhuman chick through a church
I can’t identify with whites nor Filipinos, it’s horrible
@PSA As far as the situation of getting kicked out it’s a 100% certain, and if I don’t cooperate my dad said he would pack up and leave. I’m not sure of the exact time but probably within a month or two. We had a talk last where he said he had low patience and can only tolerate so much “bullshit” that I'm supposedly dishing out to him, even though I haven’t actually done anything wrong, and he said “I’m not tolerating a problem child”.
ReplyDeleteIt’s still so crazy to see people (ESPECIALLY THEIR FUCKING PARENTS) get angry at their children for doing something “out of the ordinary”
DeleteWow, I hate to say this but this scenario also makes it worse from every angle!
DeleteI get this very strong vibe that there's "something" much more that has been going on behind the scenes from the way your parents met from the beginning and even between their religious involvement and the arranged marriage.
Truth be told, this is a grand tragedy, and as much as I know you would not like to hear this, the fact is that you will for better or worse have to endure a shared destiny one way or another with Asiatic counterparts.
But what makes this more complex here, however, is the aspects of "Asian culture" as a whole, and any standing you might have among them both from a legal or cultural standpoint, because your surname surely is Germanic.
There is a VERY high chance that your Mother is very well aware of her Matrilineal Bloodline, because every country in the world has a "small" pocket usually of these Women, and the secret knowledge is passed down by "Learned Elders" usually by their Mothers or Grandmothers for thousands of years about their Lineage, and a lot of times, the "Mothers to be" will specifically try to find themselves a Husband whom they can terminate or pollute his bloodline by having offspring that will generally be of "her lineage" and not his. They are aware of this "special gift" of theirs, since it allows them a higher level of advantages compared to other Women, who could even be persecuted or even severely punished by having obviously "race mixed" children, even if they are known to have marred a Foreigner or if it's legal in their country, the problem and danger arises more when the Mother obviously looks far different than her children.
I'm not saying this is 100% the case in your scenario, but that the probability of it being possible is VERY HIGH. Because I've been aware of it for a long time, and it's been going on for decades especially since Airline travel became mainstream and affordable to the public, and especially in families where the Americans have had Military Involvement.
I know a Ukrainian Woman who did this which I speak of from time to time, who had 3 children with an Italian guy who had very dark features from hair, eyes to skin, and all 3 of her children look nothing like him. Beach Blonde Hair and Light Blue eyes just like her, and so she used him as a "caveat" for her lifestyle and advantages in the knowledge that she could use an Italian-American and not need to worry about his genetics becoming "predominant" among her children, but also in the process escaping criticism from her family members, because it is very common that family members on both sides, once having children and as they grow up to constantly compare and relate whom the child looks like more (The mother or father), and if there is no resemblance, a sort of animosity builds.
The Ukrainian Woman is extremely young, while the Italian Man is near retirement, and it's her plan to collect off his retirement and pension and live a free life in the near future and where it will be as if her husband never existed in her life. She did it all to escape her country and get a better life.
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DeleteI have seen this develop so many times within families, and it is just a disgusting process to watch, and it also fuels more of my Anti-natalist approach to life, because I just know that child will suffer immensely and feel a total sense of displacement growing up.
It is actually quite normal that you would have difficulty relating to either side of your ancestral lineage, because technically such cross-breeding essentially makes someone almost become as if a "Third Race".
What you had mentioned about the "bulging eyes" that your mother does, that is ABSOLUTELY a surefire sign that someone comes from a Demonic lineage. It is not a normal trait, while anyone can technically do it or it might be "forgivable" as an occasional thing, if this is a habit that she often bulges the eyes by opening her eyelids wide, this is a psychotic trait of Demonic Humans.
I spent yesterday reflecting on the absurdity of this whole situation, and it's very "extreme" even outside of the context of a general scenario where a Foreign person, say a European goes to a Foreign country to marry a Foreign bride, even though that is still problematic one way or another, the dynamics here spell even much more trouble which we both can see.
From one standpoint, while all races generally will hold prejudices against someone who is mixed, if even as a joke or subconscious concern, what I do know is that it can become much more problematic on the "Asian" side, even if you look mostly Asian, but probably more concerning from the standpoint of anything with your "Name" being judged as not Asian.
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DeleteHave you traveled in any other nearby Asians countries, or are there any other Asian groups you have tendency to get along with better outside of the Philippines?
As I understand it, these countries, but especially the Philippines also have very weak institutions, so it seems even more risky to be kicked out over there.
But now the situation with the whole thing with setting you up with a Japanese Woman makes sense, since this is unfortunately a practice in Asian cultures, as they have an assembly-line approach to Marriage and Family-building, even down to the "street meat markets" in Thailand and so forth. It's a very brutal thing, even I have had "offers" from Asian Women and Asian Fathers in times past, even having never visited those countries, as they are so desperate, although that's a whole other story for another day.
Do you have any friends or people in the Philippines you are able to possibly move in with or who are aware of your situation?
What's definitely clear here in this situation however, is that your "Mother" is in the know about a lot of things including the fate and foundations of their marriage, probably more so in some ways than your Father is, but there is a lot that goes unanswered here as to why your father even went there in the first place, granted it's a common thing for Military Men to do.
Realistically speaking, the only positive way you "can" look at this, even though it can be burdensome and as a curse, the fact that there is some German in you even if it's expressed minimally, does improve your genetic lot on an Individual basis, but can be detrimental as part of the collective existing in Filipino society and culture, and whereas there is a much stronger tendency for things to exist in a collective manner.
Even outside of ideologies, religions or philosophies, on a Genetic basis, Asians are more prone to a collective structure that is more pronounced compared to Germans sense of Individualism, so this probably alienates you even more and makes you want to participate less or have difficulty functioning in Filipino social events, or even with family gatherings.
What exactly about you does your father consider so "problematic"?
One thing that is certain here regardless, is that your father must ABSOLUTELY have insane levels of self-guilt and also self-hatred and loathing, but given that he is German, there is no doubt that he will conceal it in every way possible and allow it to manifest as punishments towards you which is also why he wants to kick you out (probably a large portion of it), as messed up as that is.